Dreams

You still haunt my dreams and raid my heart. When will I be free of you? I don't want to hurt anymore. 

Broken

Finding out I really never did mean anything to you, that I was a fool for caring so much. You were able to just throw me aside like yesterday's garbage. This unbearable weight on my chest is suffocating. Thanks so much for breaking me. 

Introducing me

Hi, my name is Amber. I’m not perfect, I have a lot of flaws and that’s okay. They make me who I am. I like to think I’m funny and smart, others may have different opinions. I’m not your average “beauty”, I am though average height. I’m a helpless romantic who is in love with the idea of love. It’s hard for me to accept love considering I don’t love who I am. Before any one gets the bright idea to comment the lame “You’re perfect the way you are,” stuff, don’t. If I don’t like who I am what you say isn’t going to make that magically disappear, though I do wish it could. I’m not doing this for any kind of attention, I just want you to know who I am. I’m slowly rediscovering who I am and want you to do it with me. I love my friends and family and will go to the ends of the world for them. I’m not a small girl and I have serious self-confidence issues. I try to hide this by sticking my nose so far into my books that I can’t see the world. Like, if I can’t see you, then you can’t see me. I can count my friends on one hand and I talk to my dog like he can actually talk back to me. Sometimes, I’ll talk for him. I feel really crazy when I do it too, reminds me of Kristoff and Sven from Frozen. I’m a total crack nut; yup, crazy with a capital C.  So, that’s me so far. I’m still learning and growing (and trying to shrink too), but hey, no one is perfect right? :)